Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Speak to my heart

I subscribe to a blog of an instructor I had at the local community college. She is blind but one of the happiest content people I know. She is an amazing woman and I could only dream of being as fulfilled at life as she is. I have A LOT of work to catch up to her. I know its possible.

I have copied a section from her blog. It goes like this....

Perfectionism Kills

At this point I realized for once and forever that I would never please this Voice inside me. Every time I succeeded, this Voice would just up the ante and I would be a failure again.

Obviously I only gave you a snippet. Actually this not just a snippet... it is a frigging two edged sword. After I laughed with her other dialogue, I was wiping the tears from eyes. This is exactly what happens to me. I get a leg up in life and all goes well then out of know where I get kicked back down from the voice of perfectionism. I never will measure up to the voice. If the voice only knew it was far from perfect.

The writer concludes by saying she sent her internal voice on a vacation and decided she was going to have fun. She turns every situation good or bad into a whimsical lyric or a big laugh or something light. She accepts that she will never be perfect but she will die trying being the best she can be. Wow someone else told me that not long ago. When we can accept our own imperfections and limitations, we also are more accepting of those around us that maneuver life differently.

When I am not content with myself and trying to please that unpleaseable voice, I expect others to live up to the unpleaseable voice too then no one wins, high drama follows and then comes the damage control. Wow all that can be avoided by just cutting myself slack to be myself. I am not perfect now or never will be. Time to move on.

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